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I have returned to this stupid insipid form of journaling even though my heart is not in it. Our friend Michael is in the  intensive care unit at a local hospital on life support.

He tried to kill himself, and he failed. We don't know the extend of his condition. He is on life support systems.

I would love to write about the glories of the culinary world, succulent  roasts,  tantalizing desserts, but frankly I don't give a fuck right now.

Hang in there with me. I'll bounce back because what other choice do I have?

There people who wake up in the morning and say to themselves things are going to be bright and shiny today. These are the luck people in my estimation.  I wake up expecting the worst, and I hope for the best. In between the struggle you can find joy.

I was thinking yesterday that if there was a god and he punished all of mankind, which he supposedly made in his image and likeness, because man ate an apple when he was told not to, then he is not a forgiving god. But, all I have to do is to go to confession, and admit my sins andI'm forgiven.

Help me here someone. Because I'm confused. Why couldn't god forgive us in the first place?
Seems to me the set up the human race to fail right from the giddy -up.  If god is all knowing, all seeing, and all caring, and so fucking smart how come he/she/it didn't know we'd fuck up in the first place.  If you ask me god is not a forgiving god, he/she/it's a mean god, and apparently not an extremely bright god either.

This is why I did so poorly in Catholic school. No one could ever give me the answers to these big questions. 1) where do we come from  2) where do we go from this world when we die 3) what's it all about?  If you tell me you have to answer to these questions, then prove it to me. Then I'll follow you, and not until then.

If someone tells you they are the link in the chain to the divine, run from them as fast as your feet will carry you.

I've been told that the doors to everlasting life are open to us all if we heed the teachings of the lord, and praise his name. Here again, I got to admit, I'm confused.

All these things we have been told about god, they've all been spun by humans and what do we know? The bible was written 300 years AD of Jesus.

There's a reason newborn babies cry. It's because none of us want to leave the safety of our mother's womb for this world and why would we.

I'm still waiting for the aliens to come and take me away. You looking for people to abduct, here I am. Just don't probe me, you know where, please. How come everyone who's been abducted by aliens has been rectally examined?

I love you Michael. Please get well.

Life is what happens in between meals.

Peace,

Make Food/Not War