Stuck At 214...The Real Wall

So far I've lost 40 pounds on my quest to reshape my old fat ass to what it was when I met my beautiful bride Geraldine almost 25 years ago. Loosing 40 pounds and keeping it off is no small accomplishment for me, but I haven't lost an ounce for the last 3 months. This is very frustrating to be sure.

My birthday is 7 weeks away and I need to loose 14 pounds to reach my goal of 200 pounds. That's 2 pounds a week. Then I have 4 months to loose another 20 pounds as my stated goal of 180 pounds by the end of the calendar year. Granted I've done some binging. Thursday I must have had at least 3500 calories. The 5 beers and the shot of whiskey alone is 2,000 calories. Then there's been the pizza binges.

Still what puzzles me is I lost weight before I hit the wall with the present regime I've been on for the last 9 and half months, so why no weight loss in the last 3 months? I've even ramped up my exercise, added cycling to the mix and I'm walking more than ever. Granted the cycling has only been for the last 3 weeks, but I don't plan on not cycling. To be completely hones,t and to live up to the code of the "Confessions of a food junkie" I have been lax lately, hoping that increasing my exercise regime would compensate for the food binging.

This Monday I'm going to do a cleanse and fast for 3 days. Then I'm going to start from the beginning yet again. That's the story of my life. Of course you could look at each day as starting over again. I'm pledging right now to not have any beers, whiskey or wine till Sept. 7th when I have a big blow out party scheduled with my friend  Erwin, my instructor from culinary school,  who turns 70 on the same days as myself. I will let Alice visit as often as needed. She hasn't been around much these days. Maybe that's one of my problems.

On the days that I fast, usually Monday and Thursday, I'm going to try and limit my calorie intake to 1,000 calories a day. Also, more veggies, fruit, and whole grains. I'll evaluate this at the end of July, weigh myself, and see how much I've lost. I still might need to loose 10 pounds in 5 weeks and 2 pounds a week is tough. It's all tough.

My parents raised me to believe that this life was a struggle, and that in between the struggle there were moments of joy and happiness. They were right of course.

That's it.

Peace,

Make Food/Not War

What I ate today;

Breakfast; small potato pancake, 2 poached eggs, 2 pieces of ham, coffee w/milk and 1 sugar

Lunch; Korean BBQ chicken & kimchi grinder, 2 handfuls of chocolate covered raisins

Dinner; small salad and cheese burger

Exercise; 4 hours cycling and 1.5 miles hiking w/dogs